crunchy toast

boo to spanish, i dont believe in writing essays in anything but english. i drew all over my hand in islam today, it was kinda odd, cuz i havent done that since highschool :/ doobie doobie do. i took pictures of it with my phone, and i tried again to get my pictures OFF my phone, but it still didnt work. i need to email them or something... at some point in time :P

im way more exicted than i should be that facebook lets me make friends with my highschool people now. :D yeah, i know, im lame. (speaking of which, do you have facebook crazy? if not.. i admire you. im a user >_<)

Let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If i can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

damn i cant wait till summer :) even if its not going to be quite as awesome as i hoped. grah... i gotta decide what im going to do by friday, cuz i hafta tell the interviewer lady. :/ i wish afshan knew exactly what he was doing, i guess im just going to assume that hes going to be doing the internship. moocow.

i want chocolate :( a box of chocolate, but only with good ones in it. no coconut or peanuts. those are icky. all caramel and cream stuff. mmmmm

god fucking dammit. why cant things just go the way i planned. i hate it when shit doesnt work out.

wheeeee i am really excited about going to ohio this summer!! we have to work out the dates and buy tickets, etc, and i need to make sure my (hopefully crossing my fingers) new job knows that i will be gone for two weeks or so. but eeeeeeeee its gonna be so cool! ill finally get afshan out of state for real, and we can play in the pond and the river and on the lawnmowers and its gonna rock. and he can meet my family, and maybe tomas will be less bitchy and angsty teenager-like so we can have fun with him, and i really hope i can visit marcos cuz i havent seen him in a few years and hes (i remember him being) a cool person. heee :)

also this job is looking to be really good assuming i get it, working all mornings, get to play with kids, go hiking/swimming, better pay than the cheese place, more fun, whee its gonna rock. i hope. i feel kinda bad, but i really cant wait to quit chuck e cheeses, im tired of it. and god it will be awesome to not work weekends. :) im sick of wasting my saturdays. so yeah, im pretty much cant waaaaait for summer to come, if it goes as planned its gonna rock. its gonna rock HARD. :D hehe yay

i really really want to go camping fridaaaay and i might cry if it is too cold/wet/etc. :( it should be much fun. i was thinking it would be awesome to take the popup trailer, but, 1) there are too many people, so who would i let in? and 2) with the possibility of booze... i dont want my parents to even SUSPECT. o_o that could get messy. but if its cold and they are still planning to go... itd be mighty tempting. or not... now that i think about it i hafta go to work so im gonna have to leave early. pah. so i guess not. but yes, i am praying that will be tolerable weather.

dad wants me to look into internships for the summer, or even the school year, and after going to this careers in teh arts panel im starting to think hes on the right track. the digital artist and the photographer were both raving about how internships were really good and got you experience and CONNECTIONS. sigh. id love to get those two things, but im guessing it will mean alot less free time. and like this one really good one the lady was talking about is a semester long, but its in new york... id be really sad. its far... and thats more money. :/ i want to GET money, not loose it. i had it in my head that internships were like... a little side job in the area i was interested that got me money and resume points. ill just have to look around

really really want a tablet... they are expensive, but i think i can possibly turn it into a bday present... at least dads considering it. wannnnnnt. i want to start doing more digital stuff. i think im going to try really hard to get some sort of digital/computer graphics course next semester in addition to my ceramics course... i hope i can fit it in. i mean, i need to figure out if i actually LIKE doing digital, and i need to learn how for gods sake. pooh.

summer summer summer summer summer summer

i want some chocolate. :( i have no chocolate. it is sad. rice crispy treats would suffice... but i dont have any of those either

hehe, yay for digital art! check out my gallery :) it makes me much happy

doobie doobie do. my sculptures coming along pretty well. :) i was going to hang a dragonfly.. but i pretty much broke it. heh, so anyways, i think ill put in on the base of the sculpture. ah hell. i dont know.

im really homesick this semester. blah. i wish i had a car so much, but then id just waste ridiculous amounts of money on gas. so i guess its better i dont. i dont know. i just want it to be summer already.

again ive got that feeling of overwhelming boredom combined with laziness. i know i could do stuff, i can always do stuff. i could do school work, or draw, or find someone to hang out with, but i cant seem to bring myself to do anything. at least i dont want to do anything in my room, i really want to do something with someone, get the hell out of here, but im back to feeling like i dont know people well enough. winterbreak screwed me over and im back to feeling too awkward to ask people to do stuff. gahhhh i feel like ive got cabin fever i want to do something, hang out i dont know whattt. i watch a movie and it helps a bit but then as soon as its over im bored again. ive got to get better, shit im worse off than i was last semester and im gonna go craaaazy. >_<

i want to get drunk.

yayy, i put up the kinda crappy pictures of my paintings on deviantart! whoo. :) so that was exciting for a little bit.

i really dont want to go to work :( pooky. at least i dont have to tomorrow, but i forgot to tell my boss i wasnt going to be working sundays, and now i think he has probably already made up the schedual for next week, so i dont want to tell him now, because then he would have to fill it in. poo. i suppose ill have to work next sunday. rah. making money is lame.

i think i get to go to ohio with afshan and (bleh) ethan, which i am super excited about :D heee its gonna be so much fun and i already couldnt wait till the summer now its twice as bad! if my work wont let me take off two weeks ill just quit i think. i dont really care! i should... but whatever. stupid money. i hate you.

http://rrrrrrrrrrrrrnnnnnnnnnnhhhh.blogspot.com/ <= pure awesomeness. :)

played a little glowstick capture the flag last night, but mostly i played on the playscape instead. it was a freaking huge game, and i didnt understand what was going on and i didnt know most of the people playing so i just didnt feel like it. plus the playscape was fun, slides and stuff. :D michelle convinced me to do jail guard duty for the last game, which was pretty fun. our jail had wheels, so we moved it. to give the prisoners a tree. but then someone jumped off the wall, at least 15-20 ft high, and got out abunch of people. mostly i sang little bits of musicals.

i want to steal my parents digital camera.

www.invisiblechildren.com

this movie gave me chills