RETURNS FROM THE DEAD!!! ... or at least hibernation
Wednesday, December 22
yay for early morning posts. ^_^ they are happy. jeez ive been late with my gift buying this year. i normally get it done earlier than the week of chrismas. >_< and debating what to get my boyfriend 4 days before? its sad. heh, at least hes doing the same thing. :) haha, whatever works. im looking forwards to seeing the grandparents. they spoil me so good. :D grandma always makes breakfast, but doesnt wake me up for it.... its awsome.
dum de dum... predictably i havnt even touched the applications that i swore to get done much less started on the essays i was supposed to have looked over w/ my english teacher... oh well... i guess ill just have to wait for the motivation of impending deadlines. that always seems to work pretty well.
i finally found one of my skin cremes that i 'lost' a few weeks ago, and it was in my parents bathroom. >_< sometimes being lazy isnt quite as cool as you might assume.
aaag.... still have that SONG stuck in my head...
beeeehold, a laaaady... i see you standing on the wall, clap clap you diserve it all...
>_< it just wont go AWAY
sigh. i guess i should go to sleep now, but im not at all tired. i was falling asleep at his house, but then i get up to go home and all of the sudden i have all this energy. but im pretty sure if i get into bed it will go away. it seems to work like that pretty well. yeah, gotta conserver my strength for... cleaning out the car tomorrow... mhm. and more xmas shopping? maybe.
thank ya jesus, thank ya lord! thank ya jesus, thank ya lord!
dum de dum... predictably i havnt even touched the applications that i swore to get done much less started on the essays i was supposed to have looked over w/ my english teacher... oh well... i guess ill just have to wait for the motivation of impending deadlines. that always seems to work pretty well.
i finally found one of my skin cremes that i 'lost' a few weeks ago, and it was in my parents bathroom. >_< sometimes being lazy isnt quite as cool as you might assume.
aaag.... still have that SONG stuck in my head...
beeeehold, a laaaady... i see you standing on the wall, clap clap you diserve it all...
>_< it just wont go AWAY
sigh. i guess i should go to sleep now, but im not at all tired. i was falling asleep at his house, but then i get up to go home and all of the sudden i have all this energy. but im pretty sure if i get into bed it will go away. it seems to work like that pretty well. yeah, gotta conserver my strength for... cleaning out the car tomorrow... mhm. and more xmas shopping? maybe.
thank ya jesus, thank ya lord! thank ya jesus, thank ya lord!
Sunday, December 19
oh man, i am totally gonna try and to christmas shopping tomorrow... at the mall >_< wish me luck, and ill try to make it back in one peice. goals... get presents, dont beat other people, no matter how stupid they are being, dont steal small cute children, RESIST TEMPTATION.
yes.
yes.
Saturday, December 18
whoo, another late night, but minus the silly stressed musings. ^_^ school being out helps i guess, cepting im not exactly looking forwards to having govt first thing. heh, ill deal. for now, sleeeep and fun stuff like that. :-D oh yeah. god. ring ring ring ring ring ring ring BANANA PHONE!! sigh. its in my heaaad, and it wont go away >_< oh well. lets see... um, halo is fun. heh, now im gonna have to play it a lot just so that i can get good at it and prove SOMEONE wrong who claims girls cant play good.... rar. ill show you... dum de dum, the free flows just not flowing tonight. its frozen peanut butter. :( ...i kinda want to eat. im all hungerfied. maybe toast. damn, but we're all out of the cinnamon toast. that was yummy. i dont think i want toast if its not cinnamon. chicken would be nice, but i doubt we had any. i guess ill go raid the fridge... but i cant use the microwave cuz it would wake up my parents.
check list... gift shopping, applications, throw out old school work (or BURN ^_^), get good at halo, remember to bike, catch up on sleep, learn how to throw football better so i dont feel all wimpy. oh, and learn how to sign silent night. heh, i somehow ended up promising to sign it for my grandma's church... i should probably remember how to do that at some point in time...
whoooo
check list... gift shopping, applications, throw out old school work (or BURN ^_^), get good at halo, remember to bike, catch up on sleep, learn how to throw football better so i dont feel all wimpy. oh, and learn how to sign silent night. heh, i somehow ended up promising to sign it for my grandma's church... i should probably remember how to do that at some point in time...
whoooo
Sunday, December 5
blah, stress sucks. >_< its not even all that bad... but late at night when im thinking about everything i have to do, and then the stuff that comes after taht and so on... it just gets depressing. i hate thinking about it all. why do i even have to go to college? i dont care about it. i suppose im supposed to get a good job and all, but its so unreal that its hard for me to pretend to care. i guess i do think its important to go somewhere, but i dont hardly even care where. the most important thing to me is to be near the people who matter. i couldnt care less if i go to this place or that. siiigh. maybe once im actually there i will.. i just hate it all. and school work, i just dont care. i get it done.. but it doesnt seem to matter anymore. i dont really care if i get the scholarship money, or if i get accepted. its just not very real. the only time i really feel very alive is when im with certain people. other than that its just.. motions? i dunno. like time just goes by, and im like... huh? what the hell... all i want to do is go to sleep, and not have to wake up, and not have to go home, or to school, or anywhere. just be there. i think i need motivation. i wish i could belive in more things.
