RETURNS FROM THE DEAD!!! ... or at least hibernation
Thursday, April 28
ive been feeling tired lately. maybe i just need more sleep. thats prolly it. i really want cantaloupe. if i could have one fruit all the time it would prolly be that. mmmmm. cant wait till the pools open, i can get into better shape and get TAN. my legs are so white right now.
i stepped on a needle yesterday that was jammed into my carpet. just slid right onto it. it was exceedingly painfull. it wasnt even the sharp end... it was the big one. >_< i limped around all day. it was sad.
i stepped on a needle yesterday that was jammed into my carpet. just slid right onto it. it was exceedingly painfull. it wasnt even the sharp end... it was the big one. >_< i limped around all day. it was sad.
Sunday, April 24
yay, so it was all much fun. :) my hair worked out, i actually really liked it. pele got it up, with lots of little curls pinned everywhere, it was really nice. afshan took me to a nice chinese restaurant, it was yummy :) every time he insisted on opening/closing the car door and helping me out, it was really sweet. ^_^ josh filled my expectations by wearing a indian headdress thing and the chest thingy... with all the rows of bone? im not sure what its supposed to be. anyways, that made me happy. they had a FOUNTAIN OF CHOCOLATE. it was awesome. anywho, the dance was fun, the ghetto girls put me to shame as usual, i drank some punch. danced. :) afterwards we went to justin's party, which was fun. as two of the.... four or five i think, sober people, i got to poke fun at the more tipsy and sometimes completely smashed people. hehe
i think im almost completely burned out on nirvana... i still think they are good, and all that, but im tiiired of them. i always skip over their songs. i think my current kick is in between dexter freebish and at the drive in/mars volta. although 30 seconds to mars is starting to come up, when i hear one of thier songs on shuffle it makes me want to listen to more.
500 songs!! only 2147 more to go! haha, im not even one fourth.... but this is still the highest ive ever gotten.. lets see how long i can keep it up. it all depends on how carefully i watch the battery.
Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew too high
Though my eyes could see
I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think
I still was a mad man
I can hear the voices when I'm dreaming
I can hear them say
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
*i love this song so much*
i think im almost completely burned out on nirvana... i still think they are good, and all that, but im tiiired of them. i always skip over their songs. i think my current kick is in between dexter freebish and at the drive in/mars volta. although 30 seconds to mars is starting to come up, when i hear one of thier songs on shuffle it makes me want to listen to more.
500 songs!! only 2147 more to go! haha, im not even one fourth.... but this is still the highest ive ever gotten.. lets see how long i can keep it up. it all depends on how carefully i watch the battery.
Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew too high
Though my eyes could see
I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think
I still was a mad man
I can hear the voices when I'm dreaming
I can hear them say
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
*i love this song so much*
Saturday, April 23
eeeh, im nervous about prom.. not sure how its gonna go. im terrified my hairs not gonna work out or its gonna fall down before we start or something. >_< i dunno. and then, what if afshan dances with someone else? he asked me if thats okay, and i guess it is, i just dont know what i would do if he did. like sit on the side or something? i dont think i can dance with someone else! i suppose i could try to find carly or jordann or dezi or something. im excited but i almost cant wait till its over. :)
I've been waiting for a long time
For this moment to come
I'm destined
For anything...at all
Downtown lights will be shining
On me like a diamond
Ring out under the midnight hour
No one can touch me now
And I can't turn my back
It's too late ready or not at all
someone sent me this link and ive been having fun with it ever since. :-D i love showing it to my guy friends and watching their horrified expressions. philip was by far the best. i was showing it to arthur and harry during marine bio, and philly saw it. hehe, he made really funny sounds, but the best part was when we were looking at the diagram of how it works, and arthur was like, yeah, dude its spring loaded. philly like.. squeaked or something, and clutched himself. it made me laugh so hard, so now whenever i see him or harry all i have to do is yell spring loaded to get an interesting reaction. :) happy days.
i hate painting my nails, i can never keep the damn stuff on long enough to dry hard. its a pain in the arse. i wish i had retractable claws.
I've been waiting for a long time
For this moment to come
I'm destined
For anything...at all
Downtown lights will be shining
On me like a diamond
Ring out under the midnight hour
No one can touch me now
And I can't turn my back
It's too late ready or not at all
someone sent me this link and ive been having fun with it ever since. :-D i love showing it to my guy friends and watching their horrified expressions. philip was by far the best. i was showing it to arthur and harry during marine bio, and philly saw it. hehe, he made really funny sounds, but the best part was when we were looking at the diagram of how it works, and arthur was like, yeah, dude its spring loaded. philly like.. squeaked or something, and clutched himself. it made me laugh so hard, so now whenever i see him or harry all i have to do is yell spring loaded to get an interesting reaction. :) happy days.
i hate painting my nails, i can never keep the damn stuff on long enough to dry hard. its a pain in the arse. i wish i had retractable claws.
Thursday, April 21
whoo, stuff is coming together for prom, so i hope taht works out well. unfortunately, its on the same day as nima's (afshans adorable little cousin) fifth birthday party. >_< im really hoping we can stop by for ten minutes or something, he invited me and i would feel bad if i couldnt see him. im gonna feel so weird eating at a restaurant all dressed up and stuff...
i think im gonna try to run to michaels party friday, even though i wont really have time, cuz hes trying to bribe me with mousse.. he brought some to lit mag and oh maaan its good. i want some chocolate mousse... yumyum. i guess i could make my own, and have a big thing all to myself...
i ate at wendy's, and now i feel sick. maybe i just ate too much, but.. i was freakin hungry before, and all i had was a burger and fries. doesnt seem like it should be that much but my stomachs all blaaaah.
metroid is kicking my ass. arrrr
Breathe
We've gotta let it go
Turn around and just
Breathe
Tomorrow will come, can we
Breathe
im getting a tan line on my finger where my ring is. i never actually wore a ring before this one, but its so small i hardly notice it, silver with a little bit of coral inlaid. its purty, mum got it from mexico i think. but i have a tan line! thats a first. im afraid i might get sandal tan.. need to go barefoot! its the natural way. i feel so pale... i didnt get as much sun as usual last summer. normally im still damn dark this time of year. i want to go swimmmmming, but none of the pools are open yet!! i want to swim. :(
my little toe still hurts from when i banged it a few months ago. i wonder what i did to it. i think if it stopped hurting i would miss the hurt. im used to it. i guess thats kinda weird. yeah, it is. when im bored i poke at it.
id really like to go to a dexter freebish concert.
i think im gonna try to run to michaels party friday, even though i wont really have time, cuz hes trying to bribe me with mousse.. he brought some to lit mag and oh maaan its good. i want some chocolate mousse... yumyum. i guess i could make my own, and have a big thing all to myself...
i ate at wendy's, and now i feel sick. maybe i just ate too much, but.. i was freakin hungry before, and all i had was a burger and fries. doesnt seem like it should be that much but my stomachs all blaaaah.
metroid is kicking my ass. arrrr
Breathe
We've gotta let it go
Turn around and just
Breathe
Tomorrow will come, can we
Breathe
im getting a tan line on my finger where my ring is. i never actually wore a ring before this one, but its so small i hardly notice it, silver with a little bit of coral inlaid. its purty, mum got it from mexico i think. but i have a tan line! thats a first. im afraid i might get sandal tan.. need to go barefoot! its the natural way. i feel so pale... i didnt get as much sun as usual last summer. normally im still damn dark this time of year. i want to go swimmmmming, but none of the pools are open yet!! i want to swim. :(
my little toe still hurts from when i banged it a few months ago. i wonder what i did to it. i think if it stopped hurting i would miss the hurt. im used to it. i guess thats kinda weird. yeah, it is. when im bored i poke at it.
id really like to go to a dexter freebish concert.
Wednesday, April 20
whoooo standardized testing is my friend!! no school till 12:50 all this week heheheh you gotta love it. i had donuts today. a chocolate with sprinkles, and a bavarian creme. yum. and then earl grey tea, but it wasnt my brand and it was kinda crappy.
so im actually going to calc tomorrow and i think we might have a test which would suck because i need to bs pretty much all the homework weve been assigned, not to mention you know, trying to get enough to pass it. hm. not so fun. id rather watch family guy. afshans got me hooked...
im on song 265 on my ipod. out of 2647, but its still pretty high for me. highest is 300 something. i will get to at leaast 400 this time!! and more. muah ha ha ha!! whoo. yeah, so thats the highlight of my day i guess...
i think ive got my hair figured out for prom, which is a relief. mum is gonna give me a french twist, i didnt think my hair would do that.. but shes good. :)
so ive finally made the college decision, my parents are still kinda pushing for out of state, but they wont make me, and there is no way i am going to a little church college in indiana. all its got is like... wheat fields. that would suck.
at the lacrosse game last night henry did this beautiful kick from the midfield line... it was absolutely awesome (you're allowed to kick the ball, it just doesnt happen much, and ive never seen an actual kick like that, he like punted it). and we painted our stomachs! much fun. :) its fun to be a fan.
I was raised in a certain way
And I think I've let you down
So I change my ways and I'll find a brand new path
Grew up on a man made line
That's left me empty
I've seen these scenes
Haunt me in my dreams
I've just begun to question why
How could I forget
Imaginary splits
Don't have a thing a to do with life
so im actually going to calc tomorrow and i think we might have a test which would suck because i need to bs pretty much all the homework weve been assigned, not to mention you know, trying to get enough to pass it. hm. not so fun. id rather watch family guy. afshans got me hooked...
im on song 265 on my ipod. out of 2647, but its still pretty high for me. highest is 300 something. i will get to at leaast 400 this time!! and more. muah ha ha ha!! whoo. yeah, so thats the highlight of my day i guess...
i think ive got my hair figured out for prom, which is a relief. mum is gonna give me a french twist, i didnt think my hair would do that.. but shes good. :)
so ive finally made the college decision, my parents are still kinda pushing for out of state, but they wont make me, and there is no way i am going to a little church college in indiana. all its got is like... wheat fields. that would suck.
at the lacrosse game last night henry did this beautiful kick from the midfield line... it was absolutely awesome (you're allowed to kick the ball, it just doesnt happen much, and ive never seen an actual kick like that, he like punted it). and we painted our stomachs! much fun. :) its fun to be a fan.
I was raised in a certain way
And I think I've let you down
So I change my ways and I'll find a brand new path
Grew up on a man made line
That's left me empty
I've seen these scenes
Haunt me in my dreams
I've just begun to question why
How could I forget
Imaginary splits
Don't have a thing a to do with life
Monday, April 11
soo the paper obviously didnt happen. :-D yeah. not that i really expected it too. but that means i kinda need to get it done. i think i can do it fine if i can just concentrate! siigh. thats what i have problems with. i washed the car. its mostly clean now, at least alot better than before. heh. i think ill go play metroid for a few minutes so i can fully concentrate on my paper... im gonna try for one straight hour. see how much i can get done. (then make dinner. mm.)
Sunday, April 10
gaaahhh mom has been hinting that she wants me to get a job over the summer. >_< i guess it would be good, cuz i do kinda need the money, specially if i want that laptop, but i really really really dont want to DO anything over the summer. its my last highschoolish summer, where hopefully some people will be in town. i want to relax and enjoy it as much as possible. i want to (well not really) start running with afshan, and definitly swimming, and then sleeping and watching tv and OH MY GOD METROID!! its eating my soul, or whats left of it by now. siigh. that and dx-ball.. heheh. love.
bleh. i really dont want to start homework yet.. i mean.. i only need to turn a 5pg paper into a 10pg one... ill just tell it to multiply. i mean.. what doesnt like multiplying? if i could invent a essay viagra, that would kick ass. hell yeah.
*cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ... *
got the weirdest stuff stuck in my head and i dont know why.
i dont really feel like pizza tonight, but its all done and im too lazy to make something else. mmm grease. maybe ill eat a piece of a carrot. whoo, veggies. sigh. homework sucksssss. college visit wed, so im gonna have to make up my govt test... yuck. but at least thats an extra day to study, and an extra day (tonight) to not. so i guess i should work on that paper.
apparently i have a makeup appointment for prom. that should be fun.
*that shit doesnt come off!*
need nhs hours fast. >_<
bleh. i really dont want to start homework yet.. i mean.. i only need to turn a 5pg paper into a 10pg one... ill just tell it to multiply. i mean.. what doesnt like multiplying? if i could invent a essay viagra, that would kick ass. hell yeah.
*cuz the boyz in the hood are alwayz hard
You come talkin' that trash and we'll pull your card
Knowin' nothin' in life but to be legit
Don't quote me boy, cuz I ain't said shit ... *
got the weirdest stuff stuck in my head and i dont know why.
i dont really feel like pizza tonight, but its all done and im too lazy to make something else. mmm grease. maybe ill eat a piece of a carrot. whoo, veggies. sigh. homework sucksssss. college visit wed, so im gonna have to make up my govt test... yuck. but at least thats an extra day to study, and an extra day (tonight) to not. so i guess i should work on that paper.
apparently i have a makeup appointment for prom. that should be fun.
*that shit doesnt come off!*
need nhs hours fast. >_<
Wednesday, April 6
ugggg. speeding ticket=$147. maannn my bank account is draining, and it makes me feel lazy and like im spending too much money. i dont know where it all goes! i dont buy things for myself really. just like... food. gas, library fines, other stuff, shit shit. this is lame. godd i hate lame crap like this that i could have avoided so easily... so much money down the drain for absolutely nothing! just a few moments of not paying attention and bam! arrrr it makes me freaking mad.
need to buy prom tickets.
fuckin hell.
need to buy prom tickets.
fuckin hell.
Tuesday, April 5
i love driving after dark. tonight there was this awesome lightning storm, it must have been a big one because it was all across one side of the sky. but it was really overcast, so the lightning was flashing through the clouds, it was really cool. completely silent, no rain where i was, just a really cool light show. so i had my windows down and the music off and i was just watching the lightning... it was calming.
i need calm right now.
all strung out, i wish all this stuff was over, less than a month to decide where im going to school, ap tests, and to make me feel even more stupid i am stressing out over prom. >_< how lame is that? i dont know what to do with my hair or makeup cuz ive never done this before. siigh.
*the soundtrack of my life is playing tensioning*
And it ends
From a scream to a whisper
Can you free me from these words and let me forget
Can you free me from this world and help me forget
Tensioning trouble
We're condemned to repeat
From covered up lies
What is all out of reach
The sky could fall
The bliss of beginning replaced with an ending
The sky could fall
It's always, it's always the same
i want something different from school and home and school.
*need you*
i need calm right now.
all strung out, i wish all this stuff was over, less than a month to decide where im going to school, ap tests, and to make me feel even more stupid i am stressing out over prom. >_< how lame is that? i dont know what to do with my hair or makeup cuz ive never done this before. siigh.
*the soundtrack of my life is playing tensioning*
And it ends
From a scream to a whisper
Can you free me from these words and let me forget
Can you free me from this world and help me forget
Tensioning trouble
We're condemned to repeat
From covered up lies
What is all out of reach
The sky could fall
The bliss of beginning replaced with an ending
The sky could fall
It's always, it's always the same
i want something different from school and home and school.
*need you*
Sunday, April 3
whoo i havent written in a while, havnt been... inspired... hahah. that is im lazy. very much so. i guess its good that mcdonald is making us turn in a draft, or else id be trying to write ten pages on a sunday night. so im in a pretty good mood, which is funny because i have a shitload of english crap to do. but its all pretty much easy stuff i just need to bull shit. i had tea. i have lotsa candy from jordanns birthday. im pretty happy. i think i want to go biking, its a nice day, sunny and breezy. and i hardly went outside yesterday till after dark. i cant waaaait untill the pools open, i swear im gonna swim almost every day!! i want a pool. :( maybe ill dig one. im sure mum wouldnt mind.
*aaaah god need to talk to her jeez i dont know what to do she almost cried last night*
the coffeehouse was lots of fun, its amazing some of the talent we have in school. josh is gonna make it big some day, he is one of the funniest people i have ever met in person, i really admire someone who can keep a straight face no matter what shit they are doing (maybe cuz i cant do it). and lily, oh my god shes got the most beautiful voice....
so im gonna miss graduation... we are leaving for ireland the day before. it still hasnt really sunk in. at first i was just like, ah, i dont really care. but when i think about it.. its like... my graduation, i kinda want to see all my friends and stuff... siigh. maybe i can ask carly to get someone to video tape it. i mean, im gonna be in ireland, but still. its kinda a once in a lifetime event. and im gonna miss church camp. first time in ... 8? 9? years. but its not like thats my only chance, im planning on doing it even in college. if im not too busy working summers. thats what mom wants. ugg. suck.
amazingly enough i havent trashed my good mood! i think its because of Dexter Freebish. :)
I look so good when I'm driving in my car
I'm in the fastlane, and I'm gonna be a star
Green light, green light, please don't turn yellow
Cause if you do you know I'll step down on that pedal
You know I never have to pay for my dinner
Aw yeah, you know I'm always the winner
You want me but you cannot have it
I'll slap your hand if you try to grab it
*i love you*
*aaaah god need to talk to her jeez i dont know what to do she almost cried last night*
the coffeehouse was lots of fun, its amazing some of the talent we have in school. josh is gonna make it big some day, he is one of the funniest people i have ever met in person, i really admire someone who can keep a straight face no matter what shit they are doing (maybe cuz i cant do it). and lily, oh my god shes got the most beautiful voice....
so im gonna miss graduation... we are leaving for ireland the day before. it still hasnt really sunk in. at first i was just like, ah, i dont really care. but when i think about it.. its like... my graduation, i kinda want to see all my friends and stuff... siigh. maybe i can ask carly to get someone to video tape it. i mean, im gonna be in ireland, but still. its kinda a once in a lifetime event. and im gonna miss church camp. first time in ... 8? 9? years. but its not like thats my only chance, im planning on doing it even in college. if im not too busy working summers. thats what mom wants. ugg. suck.
amazingly enough i havent trashed my good mood! i think its because of Dexter Freebish. :)
I look so good when I'm driving in my car
I'm in the fastlane, and I'm gonna be a star
Green light, green light, please don't turn yellow
Cause if you do you know I'll step down on that pedal
You know I never have to pay for my dinner
Aw yeah, you know I'm always the winner
You want me but you cannot have it
I'll slap your hand if you try to grab it
*i love you*
