crunchy toast

graduation almost here!! just at the end of may. whoo. it will be much fun, i hope. we have to wear purple robes >_< our principal was like, i think i orderd black robes. then he gives an announcement saying, no, actually they are purple. siigh. maybe ill dye my hair to match, my one moment of school pride just to be nice. i mean, its a good school. i just havent bothered with school pride. i suppose dating afshans helps, hes dragged me along to volleyball games, and i have some good friends on the team, then i know other ppl on the soccer team and im planning on seeing some lacrosse games. so i guess i have a little school spirit. :D haha. whatever works.

ug i need to finish up the last of my college essays so i can commence to do nothing. sooo close to being done.so close. i finaly found a good rip program (ipod rip... hahah, how ironic) but of course its not freeware/shareware. but i do have a free trial for 10 times. maybe ill buy it if i actually use them all. i dunno. i think i want to buy a laptop...

i need to do something today. :) maybe go biking, but i dunno if i want to. ive been roller blading lately, but its too wet today, the last thing i need is less traction. i fell down for the first time yesterday ( i finally figured out why my shoulder hurts... i had forgotten...) but it was okay. just embarrassing. dont try to slow down and pick something up at the same time >_< i totally landed on my hands and knees then rolled onto my side. it was like i had lost my breath, but only on one side. weird feeling.

huurm. ive been having these crazy cravings for toast.... we have this awesome cinnamon bread and i just want to eat toast all day long. mmmmm

ack. so close to the end..... feb 1st and all my apps are in... and i dont even have to worry too much cuz i have been unofficially accepted into my top choice ^_^ whooo!! now just have to wait for scholarship money...ug, and i guess i should write more essays for more money, but MAN i dont want to. im so sick of deadlines. i cant wait to be outta high school.

siigh. and now i have yet another prom dress to choose from >_< choices choices.... im not very good with that kinda stuff.

speaking of which its time to order all the graduation crap!! dude, i am soooo going to spend like 300 fucking dollars on my senior flipflops and my jewelry and my mementoes and my invitations and my personalized pen!!! its gonna be fucking AWESOME.

yeah. awesome. dont you doubt it.

its starting to really piss me off how NONE of the frikin ipod rip programs will actually recognize ALL your songs. you wouldnt think it would be that hard... but theres always a few hundred missing. >_< gdamn. they just make it as hard as possible to steal music. how dare they. i should protest. *protests* woot.

yay, gave blood last week. much fun ^_^ i completely recommend it. needles and blood loss!! plus they give you cookies

ugg. good day, bad night. >_< had fun watching lbj's soccer game, and holding onto afshan's little monster of a cousin, nima. :) i dont understand where all their energy comes from!! hes little! almost 5, but he NEVER gets tired!! i think its some horrible and evil secret thing... he likes eats the souls of unsuspecting adults, or sucks the blood of small mammals and uses it to fuel his little body long past when it should collapse in exhaustion!!

...yeah. so thats my thoughts on the matter. after eating lunch and hanging about watching alien/rocky 3/halloween (switch around during commercials/boring parts) i went shopping for a prom dress with afshan and his mom. haha, it was interesting... but fun. me: haha, look at that poofy one... no way.... his mom: oh, i that one looks like the one i picked out! (holds up black dress that makes me think of ballerinas). yeah. anyways, having her along sure boosted my self confidence. every single dress i tried on, oh that looks great on you! the color looks so nice on you! thats such a pretty dress! you look good in anything! heheh... i could totally have a service like that... rent a mom to boost moral! listen to her sweet sweet lies!!! i could make big bucks. :D came down to two, a really pretty black formal one, strapless, long and simple, its really nice, and then a long purple one thats more drapey and is kinda drawn up on the side, with this long ... thing... hard to describe. hah, well i ended up buying both, gonna let my mom see them, then make the final decision and return one. i hate making decisions like this... >_<

then when i got home my dad started bugging me about getting my college essays done. reminding me of the date and all that crap. its like... i KNOW dad, i KNOW i dont have much time, leave me alone! bah. and i broke a water glass. i hate doing that. then i got to clean it up, whoooo. then my mom just gets on my nerves sometimes, when she tries to tease me about stuff and i just get pissed off or annoyed and want her to leave me alone. >_< i shouldnt be so temperamental. siiigh.

i need to read mrs dalloway >_< gaaah. im like on page 13... urg. and i need to get more cactus bugs... my bio project has a data due date wed...

ugggg hayfever is of the DEVIL. >_< head feels like someone stuck a bike pump in my ear and overinflated my heaaaad. need to get new SUPER MEDICINE!!! that like.... works. whoooo it will be awsome

going to a college interview thursday >_< im neeervous, its also the scholarship interview, and i have to actually know stuff about the school so that i can not sound really stupid... blaaaaah. i ate all my chocolate. :( least theres still ice cream. and TEA. breakfast tea. earl grey. cream and sugar. and CAFFEINE!!

had this stuck in my head all day long... hate you 101x....

i tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

whoo, seven months with afshan. :-P thats over half a year...

this caffine thing isnt working for me. my tea just made me feel warm and even sleepier. >_< aaaarrg. i dont believe in college!! why should i have to write silly essays? blaaah. i just want to sleep. and eat. that too. i wantses chocolate. gaaaah. i had a dream last night that i started driving to school, but this lady was coming the wrong way down the street, and so i tried to back up but ran into someone and then she ran into me, and was like, aah, i dont have insurance, can i work off the cost? and i was like nooooo im gonna be late picking hollen up and going to school!! it sucked. hardcore and shit.

so my hair ended up black. :-P i tried like a reddish color over the light blue (ive sworn off bleaching for a while, its killing my hair) but instead of the purplish i hoped for it was this bizarre grayish redish weird stuff. with green tints. so i went to heb and bought some black. its TRUE black, none of that brown black shit. ^_^ its gonna take a while to get used to.

ive decided i really want a punching bag. i like punching. it is very satisfying. i suppose i could pay my brother to stand real still... haha, oh well. we'll see. maybe ill steal hollens, she still hasnt put it up.

too cold to bike... maybe ill do tae bo!! but i dont have a billy blanks tape :( i dont know if i could do it without his support.

ill punch you in your ovaries, right up to your baby maker!!!

i killed someone with a trident today.


the hair is red. or will be. once i wash it out. 5 more minutes....

whoo for a new year!! i hope its better than last one was... hahaha, not that i have much to complain about. i found a boyfriend who i adore, and nothing bad really happened. heh, oh man i cant believe theres only one semester left.... but lets not think about that right now. :-P

new years party was fun! once i loosened up and wasnt feeling so nervous.... but the fireworks were fun. shitloads of sparklers. we created a new explosive firework involving many many sparklers and a glass jar :-D hehe

siiigh, i cant wait till these applications are all done and in the mail. i think i can deal with the acceptance letter stuff by just forgetting about it.