crunchy toast

how about most of it? if i had titles you could just read those.. thats why i dont!! ... whoo.


hm. i was gonna write. but i dont think i will.

... no. i wont.

do you even read all this?

i bought a cover for my ipod! :D it makes me happy. it is stretchy and black and goes well with my cellphone case which makes me even happier!! hehe. i love it when things match. yupyup. i really really want a smoothie right about... now. .... i need a machine.. i guess i could start making them myself again, i did that for almost a year every morning, they just never seem to taste quite as good as the ones i buy. maybe if i actually looked at a recipe or somethign, instead of just throwing in random fruit. i think youre supposed to put ice cream or yogurt or something in them. :-/ hmm

i need to go to the store. we dont have my sammich bread. :( i cant make sammiches without my bread. i suppose i could have a bagel sammich but i dont like those as much. and fruit, all we have is orange. s. i want apples! smooooothie....

gotta remember to buy gas tomorrow... i hate it when im halfway somewhere before i realize its on empty. remember.. remember... >_< just have to force it into my head and it will pop out later. hopefully in time for when i need it.

half day wed! and friday off! i love religious holidays i dont celebrate. unless my mum makes us go to church.. i really hope not. ill boycott it.

my brother is not at all helping my concentration. he just bought a gameboy advance sp and then has the audacity to get crash bandicoot (a game i played for hours after school daily all during middle school). hes even talking about getting spyro. >_< how am i suppose to get things done when that kind of temptation is around!! and it eats up time so quickly without me even noticing. damn it all.

i need motivation. for so many things. i really hate caring just enough to feel bad when i dont do shit, but not enough to really try. i know that sounds stupid, because if i know it needs to be done, i should be able to try, right? i dunno. i guess im just lazy. there is so much stuff. i really really need to do scholarship stuff, but i dont think i will, and that shit actually matters. and then i still dont exercise like i need to. >_< thats probably the worst. i do it enough that i dont feel crappy all the time, but i still dont do it daily. i let little things stop me, like im busy, or im tired that day.. and even when i do i dont feel like its helping. yet im not willing to like, run or something that i know helps more. i hate it so much but i wont change it. what kinda crap is that?

siiigh. i feel tired. i keep on thinking about/remembering things i should have done/still need to do this week... and spring break is almost over. gaaaaah i cant wait till summer....

i am swearing off cleaning my room. the junk is developing defense mechanisms. within a minute i stepped on like a little itty bitty nail (not a tack, this thing was small enough so it went right into my foot) and then managed to jam something up under my nail. it hurt. i think form now on i will leave the junk to evolve in peace. it has a right to life too, who am i to put it away?

so i had a kinda creepy experience today (which afshan says was my fault). he was driving me home, and we were going down the highway and went past this car, and i looked in its window and there was a hippy type guy, long hair, etc, talking on the phone. he waved to me, so i waved to him, no particular reason. then we exited, and turned, and as we were waiting at the light i looked to my right and there was the guy again!! but he gave me this really creepy smile!! like straight out of a horror movie im-gonna-show-up-at-your-house-and-stab-you-with-a-knife kinda grin. eyebrows and everything. i just started laughing nervously and couldnt stop. it was strange.

hm. i was gonna post, but then all the writing energy drained out of my fingers... so i guess i will go clean my room. (im always surprised by how much crap i can shove in my closet.)

what is with AP tests, why should i have to pay $50 to take a test!! do they really need that much money to cover the costs? agggg i dont think im gonna do well. its depressing. im only taking some of them so i dont have to take the finals. bah humbug. wish i had taken gov/eco over the summer. siiigh.

so much stuff to do, but i just dont feel like doing it. i want to sleep, not study. im tiiiired of studying for crap i dont give a damn about. nick a. brought german chocolate cake to calc tuesday. i think we have decided to bring food every quiz day. :) much fun. i just might volunteer for the next.

rar biking makes my knees feel funny. i still have my old tenis racket, but my the outside walls of my house are bad for practicing. they are rocky, and the ball never bounces off straight. it goes weird places. rarg. i should build a tennis court in the backyard. hmmmmm

blue on black, tears on a river
push on a shove, it dont mean much
joke around jack, match on a fire
cold on ice, a dead mans touch
whisper on a stream, doesnt change a thing
doesnt bring you baaaack
blue on black