RETURNS FROM THE DEAD!!! ... or at least hibernation
Tuesday, April 27
hermm... i dont really have anything interesting going on in my life that i really feel like blabbing about.... so time for one of my famous, 'RANDOM MUSINGS'!!!!!! hehe... feel free to leave early, but stop by the door first so i can DUCT TAPE YOU TO THE WALL AND PIN OPEN YOUR .....um... ears? EARS AND YOU WILL LISTEN!! MUAH HA HA HA!!!!
okay, think i got that out of my system. little evil dictator pops up in my mind every once in a while, and if i dont let him rant a bit, he gets a little crazy... tells me to.. burn things... yeah...
so, the rant o' the day is on... WAR!!! or violence to be more specific. my question: are humans inherantly violent? some times i think so. not nesissarly malicious, or malevolent, but just violent. prone to force. i noticed that whenever my brother comes into a room, i start getting pissed off at him. if he comes in, gives me a chocolet, and hugs me, i push him away cuz i dont want to be hugged. i want to hit him. for no reason!! is this some strange natural selection that make me want to kill compition? i was brought up in a pacifist household, yet i am prone to violence. why? even if we stopped all war, murder, crime, etc, would the world be any better of a place? im afraid that if a bunch of humans were born into a utopia, with no experience with violence, that they would eventually start being violent. can we really ever get away from it?
or maybe im just crazy. that would explain the whole hating my brother thing. or is it the hormones? dammit, there has got to be away to get rid of them without turning into a guy. damn you estrogen, damn you!!! *shakes fist at uncaring sky*
okay, think i got that out of my system. little evil dictator pops up in my mind every once in a while, and if i dont let him rant a bit, he gets a little crazy... tells me to.. burn things... yeah...
so, the rant o' the day is on... WAR!!! or violence to be more specific. my question: are humans inherantly violent? some times i think so. not nesissarly malicious, or malevolent, but just violent. prone to force. i noticed that whenever my brother comes into a room, i start getting pissed off at him. if he comes in, gives me a chocolet, and hugs me, i push him away cuz i dont want to be hugged. i want to hit him. for no reason!! is this some strange natural selection that make me want to kill compition? i was brought up in a pacifist household, yet i am prone to violence. why? even if we stopped all war, murder, crime, etc, would the world be any better of a place? im afraid that if a bunch of humans were born into a utopia, with no experience with violence, that they would eventually start being violent. can we really ever get away from it?
or maybe im just crazy. that would explain the whole hating my brother thing. or is it the hormones? dammit, there has got to be away to get rid of them without turning into a guy. damn you estrogen, damn you!!! *shakes fist at uncaring sky*
Monday, April 26
yay!! friday went to my friends' double b-day party, it was a blast. one of their bands played alot and it was fun and loud and cool and lots of fire. :P they had tons of bug spray, and teke lanterns, and BEANIE BABYS!!! i had to promis not to burn those. :( but i did get to make flame throwers!!! yay for bug spray!!!! and pizza. pizza is good
Tuesday, April 20
okay, i know i havent been posting alot, but these AP tests are killing me!!! and every single teacher has gotten together to all make really big projects right before school ends so i can go crazy and kill myself trying to write a paper, read a book, write a play, and reserch physics!!! aaahhhhh!!!!!
on a more positive topic, today i saw my neighbor dario for the first time in a while, and he has gotten taller and hoo boy he is HOT!!! lol, the only problem is he is like 14, and now i feel like a child molester.
on a more positive topic, today i saw my neighbor dario for the first time in a while, and he has gotten taller and hoo boy he is HOT!!! lol, the only problem is he is like 14, and now i feel like a child molester.
Friday, April 16
HELLO EVERYONE!!! *runs and slides onto the stage* and how are my loyal readers doing today? huh? *crickets chirping* dammit. well screw ya'll too, okay? well, i would rant about runescape, but i already did that in monkeydaze, so instead will rant about the failure of deoderant that i suffered today at lunch.
sam let me borrow his zippo again, and michelle has aprils, but neither had any fluid in them!!whats the point of a zippo when all they do is spark? so other guy (whatshisname) has some spray on deoderant, ax or something. (makes you irrisistable to women!) so we decide to spray the ax in the zippo pad thing at the bottem. michelle even sprays the stuff into the cap untill she has like 1/2 an inch of liquid, then pours it in. no result. stupid stuff. if we had a working lighter we could have made a flame thrower, but no, all i managed to do was set my hand on fire temporarily. stupid shit.
so anyways, who will be anti prom with me? stupid school events. i dont beleve in them unless they are free and there are lots of fish to harrass, neither of which applys to prom. so instead next week sometime we plan to have an anti-prom party, wear our modified dresses (i will get you a pic) and get really drunk in protest. woot.
oh GOD what is the world coming to?
sam let me borrow his zippo again, and michelle has aprils, but neither had any fluid in them!!whats the point of a zippo when all they do is spark? so other guy (whatshisname) has some spray on deoderant, ax or something. (makes you irrisistable to women!) so we decide to spray the ax in the zippo pad thing at the bottem. michelle even sprays the stuff into the cap untill she has like 1/2 an inch of liquid, then pours it in. no result. stupid stuff. if we had a working lighter we could have made a flame thrower, but no, all i managed to do was set my hand on fire temporarily. stupid shit.
so anyways, who will be anti prom with me? stupid school events. i dont beleve in them unless they are free and there are lots of fish to harrass, neither of which applys to prom. so instead next week sometime we plan to have an anti-prom party, wear our modified dresses (i will get you a pic) and get really drunk in protest. woot.
oh GOD what is the world coming to?
Saturday, April 3
ook... sorry, i know i havent posted in a while, but have been busy, and lazy. bad combonation. meh, i am stuck babysitting late tonight, i dont expect his parents for another half hour or so. the kids asleep.. but i am bored! i am sick and tired of watching disney, i actually finished all the homework i brought (o.O) and now i am messing around on the computer. but since its not mine, i cant even download any good porn!!! :P lol. saw hell boy today, its pretty good. but what pissed me off is that the main charicter is a completely steriotypical devil, humanish, red skin, big horns, but every single other demon in the movie is basically a big scary squid with lots of teeth and eyes. why is he the only one that looks like a traditional devil? whatsever.
